Too old for Leo Dicaprio

Transcript

Hannah K. 0:00
What's up everybody? Welcome to the PBP podcast where we give our unsolicited opinions. Point blank period. I'm Hannah.

Sydney F. 0:08
I'm Sydney.

Hannah K. 0:09
Thank you guys so much for being here today. We really appreciate it. It's been a couple of weeks now, a

Sydney F. 0:15
couple of weeks,

Hannah K. 0:16
we're trying this new thing where we're doing it bi weekly. Now, just because it's a little bit more feasible for the both of us

Sydney F. 0:25
weekly is good, but overwhelming. Yeah,

Hannah K. 0:27
it really is. So

Sydney F. 0:28
it was just a lot. Yeah, we might be able to go back to that eventually. But for now, I think BI BI weekly just works out better.

Hannah K. 0:35
And sometimes it's really hard to do weekly because you don't have a lot to talk about.

Sydney F. 0:41
You really don't. It's harder that way like you, at least with bi weekly. You're like letting ship build up,

Hannah K. 0:46
right. And I think this way, even though it's like our podcast is becoming a lot more successful, our numbers are better than they have ever been. And I've been amazed at how well it is doing

Sydney F. 0:59
climbing every time you check them.

Hannah K. 1:00
Absolutely insane.

Sydney F. 1:02
It's just gonna get better. People love the filth. They love the filth and they love the trash. They damn if you guys didn't know you're listening to the filthiest and trashy as podcast out. Currently it is. So we have our first closet hater. Yeah. Hey, it wouldn't be us. If we didn't like bring this up. We have to give it the attention that she's asking. Yeah, this person, whoever they are.

Hannah K. 1:25
Here's that attention that you ordered. Yeah.

Sydney F. 1:27
So come to find out, which is so exciting. Someone was trash talking our podcast to my mother the other day. And honestly, we're really hype about it. Because all we ever want is if you're talking about it, you're giving it you're giving us attention. Yeah. And if you've listened to it,

Hannah K. 1:46
you're giving us money. We were paid for it. Thank you. So thank

Sydney F. 1:50
you so so much. This person had the balls to look at my mom and be like, I heard that podcast was full of filth and trash. You're absolutely right. Yeah. Welcome back to the filth and trash. Here's

Hannah K. 2:01
what I gotta say about that. Eat my ass Karen said I know that's not your name.

Sydney F. 2:06
But you're giving very much dry puts the energy. Yeah, you're

Hannah K. 2:10
giving I schedule a time to fuck my husband once a month in the missionary right. So yeah, anyway,

Sydney F. 2:20
and like, I don't buy for a second that someone said that to you. You just feel some type of way. Are you upset? Because we have listeners and people are actually like taking into account how we feel? Are you are you upset because we're not conforming to the norms for women?

Hannah K. 2:35
All right, we're trying to break the stigma around women trying to be the perfect human beings.

Sydney F. 2:41
This is literally what we've been trying to prove from the very beginning. We say it all the time. Like we're not here to be classy. Exactly. We're not here to be good little girls.

Hannah K. 2:52
No, I'm a bad bitch.

Sydney F. 2:54
I'm a big girl now.

Hannah K. 2:57
A bad bitch. You can't kill me.

Sydney F. 2:59
It's my fuzzy I do it. I was. So you know a shout out to you, girl. Thank you so much for giving us the attention, the energy, the money in our pockets. We appreciate you so much. Yeah, leave it in the comment section. Leave us a rating.

Hannah K. 3:12
Thank you if you're feeling brave, thank you next. But anyway, how's it going?

Sydney F. 3:18
It's going good CES. I'm better now after my mental breakdown this morning had a full fledged panic attack, like the worst panic attack I've had in a long time because you guys I'm finally approved for an MRI. Yay, which is been a long time coming and something that I've really been fighting for. But now that I'm approved for it, I'm fucking terrified because I'm so fucking claustrophobic and I decided the smart thing for me to do this morning would be would be to get on tick tock and get on like people's like testimonies or whatever, from getting an MRI and read their experiences. And also Google pictures of MRI machine

Hannah K. 3:54
like literally every single thing you shouldn't do

Sydney F. 3:57
was not prepared for like the breakdown I was gonna have I was shaking from head to toe, I was sobbing, I'm on the phone with my mom, like, I don't even want an MRI anymore. I'm panicking. So thankfully, I called the MRI tech and was like, Look, I'm having a mental breakdown. I need you to calm me down a bit. So you know, they basically explained like, Okay, this is bigger than what you think it is, like, you know, you're you're gonna be a little bit hanging out of it as far as your head goes. And you're also going to get a good night night pill. Such as amazing so yeah, so I think that I think it'll be okay and we're finally going to have the answers that we've really been looking for. I think we've we've always really kind of known what I've been dealing with right? Because the symptoms are just so spot on. I think that a lot of spine specialists can pretty much identify that but you can't treat nothing without confirmation right? So

Hannah K. 4:48
but it's exciting because it's finally here.

Sydney F. 4:51
It's finally here. We're finally gonna get to see what the fuck is going on in my spine. And then I get to have a nerve damage test which by the way, if you're listening to this And you've had one can you like message me cuz that's something else I'm having a little bit of anxiety over but yeah, everything else other than that is all as well. I'm trying to get back to work I thought I was going to be able to go like on September the 19th but my primary care doctor and my spine specialist did not agree they did not shake hands on that so still laid off were still just cooped up in the fucking house which sucks like it fucks with you mentally it really does hate it and it's not that I'm like hype and like gung ho to get back to work like I'm not to pick me up fucking hate going to work. I'm just ready for routine.

Hannah K. 5:34
Yeah, you're just ready for a change of scenery. Yeah, some and then you're gonna be like, the next time I'm tired of work because my back hurts. She's gonna be texting me like I'm sick of this. I'm done. I quit.

Sydney F. 5:44
I need to lay off again if you don't mind. Yeah, no, it's Other than that though. I'm good. I just feel like this has been like such a long drawn out process and I'm just over it. How are you though? This

Hannah K. 5:55
bitch. If it's not you, it's me. So Skyler busted his chin open. Last Friday spent an hour fastest ER visit

Sydney F. 6:06
ever. I'm really shocked when you told me that I was really shocked.

Hannah K. 6:09
He fell off the fucking stairs to here. Yeah, like

Sydney F. 6:13
what did he did it just on the floor?

Hannah K. 6:15
Yes. I don't even I don't even know because I was like, I was sitting right here. Like where I'm sitting right now. I was sitting here and I heard a big crash. I was like, What the fuck was that? And he was like, oh, like in like some like writhing in pain. And I was like, What is going on? saw blood on their shirt. And I thought like, you know, he busted his mouth. Like, you know, broke his teeth. Ah, even fucking know. It was gross. So surprisingly, I didn't panic. I was like, let me call Angie.

Sydney F. 6:47
Fuck the doctors were calling Angela.

Hannah K. 6:49
Yeah. So then we went to the ER in and out 15 minutes have

Sydney F. 6:53
our stitches to the up to six town. Yeah.

Hannah K. 6:56
And he like practice tooth and now it's like broken off. So it's painful. Yes, to get that shit fix. My grandpa is in the hospital with COVID. And he's had onset dementia, like we've talked about. He's having trouble breathing. Now he's on a ventilator. I'm trying to stay positive. I do tend to get up really upset with my grandpa. Yeah, like you did with your your grandmother. Yeah. So I don't have a lot of details right now. But I'll keep you guys updated. things. I mean, I'm not gonna go to the ICU because he's in isolation, because it has COVID. And I can't see him like that.

Sydney F. 7:34
It's sometimes better to not, you know, and like I told you earlier, and I'm not trying to downplay it by any means, you know, if that's what the doctors say he needs, then that's the best place for him, of course, should be there and you know, being taken care of, and it's just COVID is so scary. Because we just we never know, especially for older people, older people immune. Is he immune like this? Is immune system pretty rough, or?

Hannah K. 7:58
I don't think so. Like he's not very sick. Often. Yeah. I mean, he's had, you know, he had heart problems. He had triple bypass surgery five or six years ago. And then, but he was really good after that. He has had stomach problems. Like he almost died when he was 21 because of an ulcer. And it like ruptured, I guess. And he had to have like, half of his large intestine cut out. Oh, my God. So but like, but like, none of that was an issue. Yeah, like maybe those problems are the reason why he's where he is, you know, because I mean, those are pretty severe things. But I've broken down a couple times, but I'm trying to like it's normal. Yeah, keep it together. And this is helping me

Sydney F. 8:48
well, you're very valid to be concerned and worried and you know, I'm here for you. And the best thing to do is just stay in that positive mindset, because that's really all you can do for him,

Hannah K. 8:59
right? I mean, obviously, if I was a doctor, I'd do all I can corps to fix him. It's

Sydney F. 9:04
hard. It's like, you know, not to depress this even more. But like, this age is like, so great. Because like, you're finally like, coming into coming into yourself and like figuring everything out. But I'll always say that this age is also so depressing, because we're getting to that age where our families are getting older and like time is running out even quicker. Yeah, and I'm not saying that's what's going on with grandpa. I'm just saying like, I feel like this age, and I'm sure a lot of people can relate to this can be sad. Like I think about like my mom, like she's in her 50s And then my, you know, I lost my grandma. I think I had a long run with my grandma, but you're just never prepared for it. Never. You're just never prepared, especially

Hannah K. 9:43
with how close because then you're very close with your grandparents. Like my grandparents raised me your grandparents basically raised you too. It's like you're losing a parent. Yeah, like I say that it is

Sydney F. 9:55
yeah, there was like parenting in different ways, especially for me Like when I was in the wrong my mom parented and disciplined and then I would be run into my grandma's when I was in trouble and my grandma would like baby me. Right. And she would also discipline but like in a softer way, right? Yeah. I mean grandparents are so important. And so it's hard that they're they're getting older and you know, I still have my grandpa and but I truly think that like losing my grandma last year, which we're coming up on a year of her death, which is crazy. It's worn down on him. It's taken a lot of it's taken a big toll on him mentally.

Hannah K. 10:28
I think that happens with a lot of married couples who have been married for 50 plus years. Yeah,

Sydney F. 10:34
I can I can imagine that it you know, losing Georgia in a

Hannah K. 10:38
natural losing my partner that I had been with for 50 plus

Sydney F. 10:42
years. It's it's sad. It's sad. And that's the scary thing about loving someone whether that's like a friend, you know, your best friends or your family member or a boyfriend like when you love someone that much it hurts that much worse.

Hannah K. 10:57
People die of broken heart. Yeah, like of a broken heart. Like yeah, I've seen it happen. Yeah, so

Sydney F. 11:04
grief is grief is hard. It's a it's a journey that is new for me. It's I would death. I can think I can admit that. I don't think that I've ever had true grief until my grandma died in like the first couple months it was sob sob sob and then months went by and I didn't cry. And then now here recently, in the past month or so I've had a couple breakdowns. And it's always like the slightest weirdest things too, that will trigger it, she would by hanging baskets, and then she would take them out and replant them in her own way. And I saw someone's hanging basket on their porch and I just bragged it's just like wearing things. It's like random

Hannah K. 11:37
things. We're about to come up on Mercury Retrograde, also here in about two weeks. I'm not looking forward to that. So be prepared to get a message from your ex. I don't even want to think about mercury, which I did already.

Sydney F. 11:52
Yes, you did. Yes, you did. Jesus squandered

Hannah K. 11:55
it. Should

Sydney F. 11:56
we save that for a live? Oh, yeah, we're saying that's a good one.

Hannah K. 12:01
You squandered it, buddy.

Sydney F. 12:03
That's the That's the word of the day. squandered.

Hannah K. 12:06
So I've hit like a low I feel unmotivated. But I'm trying to keep myself motivated doing my outlines for my podcast because I'm, I'm eager to get this out by October. Yeah. Like I'm

Sydney F. 12:21
but the thing about it is, is I feel like you're allowed to feel unmotivated. Yeah. And like, I think it's good that you do it in your own time. And like, you know, that way, when you're doing it, when you are motivated, you're getting the results that you want, and you're not trying to like force it. It's

Hannah K. 12:35
also been talking about this shit for two years. Yeah, but at least now, it'll be

Sydney F. 12:39
what you want it to be. Do you get what I'm saying? Yeah,

Hannah K. 12:42
like it's like, annoying, but like, I'm trying to perfect it at the same time. So it just takes time. Yeah. So yeah, it'll be great. That's what's going on with me. So I've I've hit the skids.

Sydney F. 12:56
Every time you mentioned Mercury Retrograde, I get like this lump in my throat. And like, I started to get like cold sweats and I'm, I'm fucking terrified of it. You and me both. Like I'm fucking terrified of

Hannah K. 13:08
it. September 9, is when it starts.

Sydney F. 13:11
Oh my god. That's so fucking close. Which Yeah, like, that's so close.

Hannah K. 13:16
Like 10 days, nine and a half. Yeah, I'm not looking forward to it. So we didn't know what was on the agenda for today. Like I had brought this up to Sydney like a while ago, like, two weeks ago, actually. And it was about Leonardo DiCaprio. It was so fucking weird. Like how I brought his name up, and then all of a sudden, this happens.

Sydney F. 13:43
It will lead to a better point to also and I think it opens up a really good conversation.

Hannah K. 13:49
All right. So Leonardo DiCaprio. He recently just two days ago or a day or so ago, there was news that broke that him and his girlfriend I think her name is Camilla Maroney or Marone or something like that broke up, and she's 25 and he has never dated somebody that's over 25 years old.

Sydney F. 14:11
And there's hardcore proof of that, because

Hannah K. 14:13
I had to write this down. He dated Giselle bunch in which is Tom Brady's wife from 2000 to 2005. So when she was 20 to 25 then he dated a woman named Bar Refaeli. I'm sorry if I mispronounced that, but he dated her from 2005 to 2011 but broke up with her or they broke up a month before she turned 26. And then this Camilla Marone or Moroni, I don't know how you say her name. Her last name dated her from 2017 to 2022. She was 20 when they started dating broke up just recently, like a couple days ago, and she turned 25 in June.

Sydney F. 15:03
So that means he has a tie. He's into you when you turn 20 And when you turn 25 He's done with you.

Hannah K. 15:10
Which is fucking weird. It's

Sydney F. 15:12
gross.

Hannah K. 15:13
It's how old is he? He's like, 47 He's almost 50 Yeah, he's pretty sure he's almost 50 years old. Like, this girl is old enough are young enough to be your daughter.

Sydney F. 15:25
And that's the thing is like, a lot of people will be like, well, she's of age legally. Yeah, well, okay. Yeah, she is thank God for that. But it's still like something that's not talked about enough. Just because someone is legal doesn't make it any less gross.

Hannah K. 15:38
doesn't make it any less weird. Like you have nothing in common. Right?

Sydney F. 15:41
What do you have in common as a 50 year old man with a 25 year old? Yeah. And what do you have in common as a 29 year old with an 18 year old you? Right? You don't it's gross? It is gross. And I think that it's something and it's becoming a an a, you know, a big talk topic on Tik Tok, especially with Demi Lovato is new song coming out. I'm not a fan. Sorry, but

Hannah K. 16:06
I don't think many people are fans of Demi anymore.

Sydney F. 16:09
She's just such a pick me and get them on.

Hannah K. 16:11
I used to feel sorry for her like, especially when she had her overdose. She almost died worse. Yeah. And she was so hot when she had her cool for the summer vibe.

Sydney F. 16:23
Doing for herself baby.

Hannah K. 16:24
I'm sorry.

Sydney F. 16:26
Do you remember her song? Did you forget?

Hannah K. 16:28
Yes. Oh my God. My God, I saw her in concert with the Jonas Brothers.

Sydney F. 16:37
I loved her back in the day. Yeah, I feel like she's done the most after her overdose. Yeah. And like, I'm not gonna get into the whole topic of like pronouns and stuff because I think people should do what the fuck they want. Yeah. But you went from being non binary, right? They them? Yeah. De them to Oh, um, now she

Hannah K. 16:56
her? I feel like it's queerbaiting it

Sydney F. 16:59
is it is and like I'm not saying people can't change how they feel about themselves. Because maybe they do. It's not something that I can relate with. Because I am a woman. I'm she heard that is how I identify. That's how I will always identify. I'm not hating on people for doing what they want to do. Y'all know. I love the girls days and days. I don't care. But she is just like, reeking of like pick me. Right? Like I'm gonna identify as they then let me get that attention. We need to get Peyton on here. Agreed. I would love to have peed on here. Yeah. And then you're going back to see her so it just it screams to me like it was something that she did to like, for attention for attention and to stay relevant. Right. And that's not cool. You don't get to use sexuality as like an attention grabber.

Hannah K. 17:42
Right? Because again, it's like it's queer bait it is.

Sydney F. 17:45
And I don't think it's gross. But her song finally 29 came out. And actually, I do like the song. I think it's not something that I listen to all the time. But I think it raises a good point when she's speaking of being 18 year old in a relationship with a 29 year old. That's a huge conversation right now, because I don't feel like it's ever been talked about enough because oh, they're 18 they're legal. I don't give

Hannah K. 18:08
a fuck. You're still kind of a kid though. At that point.

Sydney F. 18:11
I can hang around my sister's friends, which no offense to them. And I feel like my sister is really mature for her age. Personally, I love hanging with my sister. But being around people her age, I'm like, in she's 22. I don't I don't get like I'm annoyed.

Hannah K. 18:25
There's like a huge disconnect. Major. I know what I was doing when I was 22. Like, we are not the same. We don't have anything in common,

Sydney F. 18:34
right. And most of you might not know this, but I have another sister who is getting married on October the first and I'm so happy and so excited for her. I'm going to be one of her bridesmaids. But I had to have a conversation with her the other day because she's having like, you know, get togethers for her wedding and you know, wanting to go out and drink and stuff like that. And she had a get together recently, and I didn't go and I felt horrible about it. You know, I'm like, But I texted her. And I was like, Look, I am just getting old. Yeah, I'm just getting old. Yeah, it's nothing against you. And I want to apologize for not showing up because I am your sister. And I'm very much a part of this whole situation. And I don't think she would mind me mentioning this because I've already texted her. But you know, it is a disconnect. Like me laying on my couch and being at home is

Hannah K. 19:20
with a bottle of wine,

Sydney F. 19:21
my like idea of right, like a big night to sit here

Hannah K. 19:26
drink my bottle of wine, right and cry at this movie, right?

Sydney F. 19:31
And I only use that as an example of like, I can't imagine being a 29 year old man. Dany you don't have anything in common and it's gross. Right? And I'm sorry, I understand that. 18 is the legal age of consent, but I was not mature enough to be consenting to shit at that age.

Hannah K. 19:49
If you're a 29 year old man, you need to like start finding a wife right? Or she's not ready for that at least having serious relationships like an 18 year old is not ready for like a very serious relationship. They're barely out of high school. Right. And I mean, it might be different for Hollywood, though. I'm not saying it's right or wrong in any capacity because they have money. They have, you know, the resources to do whatever the fuck they want. It's different, like Hollywood is Hollyweird. Yeah, exactly different. But still, it's, we see it as gross. It is

Sydney F. 20:25
gross. And I think that it really puts a lot of mental trauma on these young girls. Because I feel like they have to force themselves to think like that older, significant other, like they're putting themselves in situations that they're not quite ready for. But I

Hannah K. 20:39
feel like a lot of those men who are are a lot older than these women manipulate. And, you know, because they can, yeah, try to manipulate them into relationships, and try to make them be what they want to mold them right into

Sydney F. 20:56
something that the room groom. It's still grooming hair. And that's the thing is like your brain at 18. I know mine wasn't isn't mature enough

Hannah K. 21:04
can drink at 20 Your brains not fully developed, What

Sydney F. 21:09
are y'all gonna do together? It's sick. And if you've had a relationship where your significant other was older, and you know you've been with them, since you were younger, and it worked out for you, great. I can't say too much because it is legal. But at the same time, I think that a lot of women and or men have been in those relationships at a young age. And I think it's done some mental damage. And I think that it's not right to expect someone that young to be on your level.

Hannah K. 21:38
You know, like at your age, when you're younger and older guy notices you you're like, Oh my God. No. Like, why we don't think what is he thinking right under knee? You

Sydney F. 21:50
don't think of how weird that is? Right time. Because again, you're like,

Hannah K. 21:55
it's the it's like the surface level of Ooh, he's noticing me this is this is great, right?

Sydney F. 22:01
And I may have told this story before. I've never dated someone older. Actually, when I was in high or when I turned 18. I was actually dating someone younger than me. No, I was 17. I wasn't 18 quite yet, when I turned 18 We pretty much split up, which I do think it's a lot different. If you're both still in high school. I'm not putting myself in that. I think it's different when you're both still in high school, I

Hannah K. 22:24
think like three years, like, you know, two, three years. Like if somebody's like, 18 And you're like, 2116 you know, it's not weird, or like 21. And like I said, 18 is not fucking weird. But yeah, anyway.

Sydney F. 22:39
But I just can remember turning 18 and thinking shit, like, I'm now on a different level than he is. It's not the same anymore. We're not still in high school. I'm not going to be going to the football games on Friday nights. Like it's different. So it fell apart. And that was only a three years different.

Hannah K. 22:56
It's just you earn a different part of your life. Exactly. Yeah.

Sydney F. 23:00
And I just remember when I was in ninth grade, there was someone who was freshly I was in ninth grade. I had I guess I had just turned 15. I'm assuming, I guess. Yeah. And this person, they just graduated high school if I'm not mistaken. Either that or they had been out for a year. Hannah knows. I'm talking about like giving each other the look trying to figure it out.

Hannah K. 23:19
Yeah, I know. He was old, like a lot older than me. Yeah. So maybe he is that I need to do some math here.

Sydney F. 23:27
He was out of high school, I can promise you that. And he was over 18. And I was 15. And he befriended me. And I liked that because I was like, Oh, I have this older friend. He can like drive me around in his car, and you know, whatever. And I thought he was really really cute back then. And he had like these weird little pet nicknames for me, and all was fine and dandy. Holy shit. Yeah, that's when he graduated.

Hannah K. 23:49
No, that's how many years older he is. Okay. Yeah, so

Sydney F. 23:53
he's six years older than me. So when I was 15, he was 21. That's sick. And I just remember I had just started taking a class that I needed help with because he was in college, and had experienced this class before. And he came over and I remember him pushing me against the garage wall. I will I will never forget it because it's something that sticks with you and kissing me and like trying to put his hands down my pants, that sexual assault. Exactly. And at the time, I think that I was crushing on him. I probably was because he was older and he was cute, but I just remember that next day feeling disgusted and like really thinking like, damn, like, that wasn't okay. And so I'm not traumatized from this experience. I'm not saying that by any means. It's not something that's affected my life. But I think it brings up a good point of how that can affect you. You know what I mean?

Hannah K. 24:45
Absolutely. Imagine if he had tried to do more.

Sydney F. 24:49
Well, I think I he absolutely would have if I would have not been like no like, you know, right. And I was also I was also very sexually shy at that age. I don't I don't even know I did lose my virginity when I was in ninth grade, but I don't know if I had at that point yet and it wasn't to him. Right. So just to make that clear that dating the person that I lost it to, but yeah, it's not it's not cool

Hannah K. 25:12
girlies if you're under the age of 18 If he is over the age of 18 He doesn't like you because of your personality. No,

Sydney F. 25:21
I'm gonna show you that right now. And trust me, it's giving predator I don't care if you are illegal he is and he's he's an groomer. He is a groomer. You're just never going to have anything in common with that man. Never.

Hannah K. 25:32
That would be like me dating like, 50 year old. I'm dating my dad. Like, oh,

Sydney F. 25:38
yeah, it is. It's

Hannah K. 25:38
grown. Even though there are some hot 50 year old men

Sydney F. 25:41
I will say like asked me who I have a crush on On Stranger Things and it's by far Hopper harbor. I think that's normal. When you start to get into like your early 30s You're like the mature men because you're looking for stability. You're looking to get into that, you know, hold me down financially, you know that

Hannah K. 26:00
type shit. But like protector.

Sydney F. 26:03
Teen at 18.

Hannah K. 26:05
Ronnie asked 26 year old can't protect me. No, no, just kidding. I love you Tammy. Know, but the Venice Film Festival started today and Timmy is there.

Sydney F. 26:20
I creeped his Twitter the other day and I was thinking about you. And you had liked every single one. Of course.

Hannah K. 26:25
Of course. I did reply to one of them. I literally mine was good. He should have liked it. He said something about bony bone like Boehner? I don't know. Yeah,

Sydney F. 26:35
you screenshot that.

Hannah K. 26:36
And yeah, mine was good.

Sydney F. 26:38
It was and he will he will he will notice you he already has he's just like nervous. See?

Hannah K. 26:43
That's the the tarot card readings. All the time on Tik Tok. They're scared. They're scared to contact

Sydney F. 26:52
us in our living room at night and she like brings out her crystals and our tarot cards and she like manifest Timothy. No, that's

Hannah K. 26:58
the tarot card readings I get on Tik Tok. Like, it's like this person is scared to contact you. I'm like,

Sydney F. 27:05
the balls. Yeah. Don't worry about it. He will come around. You make him nervous. And I do. But I think that's a good conversation to have. And I think that we nailed it.

Hannah K. 27:13
I agree. So we were going to talk about high ideas. Do you want to talk about high ideas? Do it okay, because I was thinking why not? And plus, I think Playboy curse, like we're gonna get to it.

Sydney F. 27:26
So we've mentioned it many times before on the show how we really had our days of weed, smoking, smoking, and I'm talking about it. That's all we did. We live to smoke. That was like, this was like, 2014 we didn't have a lot. We didn't

Hannah K. 27:42
want to smoke. We smoked to live.

Sydney F. 27:46
I was a piece of shit. And I will admit that I was a piece of shit. And that's all I care about. Literally, like if people were paying their bills, they were like, I gotta pay rent. I gotta pay my phone bill. I'm like, I gotta get it. I have.

Hannah K. 28:00
I gotta get a bag. ratified a bag. Now.

Sydney F. 28:04
In Hana at the time, you were living just like a throne. Bar. It was like three minutes, maybe? Yeah. So let's get into

Hannah K. 28:12
it. All right. Tell me about the first time you ever smoked. Okay,

Sydney F. 28:16
so I'm gonna give a shout out to it. Well, I'm not gonna say their names, but shout out to the two people that ever had ever gotten me. Hi. They know who they are. I don't they listen. But if they do shout out to them. I was dating someone at the time who came into the relationship basically, like, look, I smoke weed. And if you don't like it, you can step I didn't like it. Yeah, I had never smoked before. And I wasn't really I lacked the knowledge on on weed.

Hannah K. 28:42
Right? It was still taboo at the time. Not

Sydney F. 28:45
very yeah, like I didn't talk about that. That's the devil's lettuce. Right? You didn't you're on drugs. You're a piece of shit. Your your cognitive skills are slumped, but I kind of was just like, oh, no, like, I'm cool with it, even though I wasn't because I liked him. And we would start going to like these hangouts and like these little get togethers and when every time he would smoke, I would get fucking mad like, I would be like, I'm ready to go home like you're being a piece of shit. So we go to this one little get together and a couple of my friends who they were homies they were just, you know, good friends. I have a lot of good memories with them. I don't like to name drop a lot on here. But they started to get my boyfriend Hi. And I was pouting in the kitchen, even though I was downing shots of liquor like that was much better. And I'm pissed. And so one of my friends comes in the room and he's like you bitched at him all the time and you've never tried it. Why don't you just try it? And if you don't like it, you can keep bitching. But if you do like it, y'all can smoke together. And I was like, okay, but I probably would have never said yes, if I wouldn't have been drunk. So but I did. I was like, fuck it. Let me hit the blunt. So I did. And that was all she

Hannah K. 29:51
wrote. Now that's a wrap. That was a wrap.

Sydney F. 29:54
I do remember it being like the highest I've ever been.

Hannah K. 29:57
I'm the highest in the region. I guess I just

Sydney F. 30:01
remember, like everything like slow down and like, I thought my friend's cat was dead and he wasn't. And I'm like crying but I'm also like laughing at the same time and like, it was like all these emotions into one and it was the most beautiful, like euphoric feeling I've ever had in my entire life. Truly. Yeah. If I could feel like Sydney did in that moment. Always. So that was my first time hitting the blunt and, and, and I didn't stop for a long time after How old were you? I was like, 1920 I really get kind of jealous of people that have like these stories of like, coming to high school high and shit. I'm like, That sounds fun. Yeah, I wish I would have been such a plus, because I probably would have been. What about your first story? What happened?

Hannah K. 30:42
So my first okay, I had a friend and she was dating at the time. Real hard, you know, he always had the good, right, like, always had it. And like they live together in Radford. That's where I stay.

Sydney F. 31:04
That's where we stay everybody's home away from home when they were young.

Hannah K. 31:08
I got fucking wasted and they were like here smoke is you won't have a hangover in the morning. Didn't have a hangover in the morning. I was like this fucking shit is amazing. Like that's all I really remember. And then he made us chocolate chip pancakes. I was like fuck yeah, this is amazing.

Sydney F. 31:26
It tastes so damn good. What did you put in?

Hannah K. 31:30
But that was my first time so like it was it was just like me her and her boyfriend and that was it. I'm sure there were other people but like I don't fucking remember

Sydney F. 31:39
right it's truly for the longest time it was such a good experience for me and then I moved in with that said boyfriend because we definitely continue to smoke together I literally was a fiend for it at that point like

Hannah K. 31:53
she was like a like a drug addict that wasn't a drug addict like I'm not even kidding was

Sydney F. 31:58
it having like withdrawals or nothing? Like I wasn't throwing up if I didn't have it but I was crying if I didn't have it like it was it was bad and

Hannah K. 32:08
she would probably get a little little hateful if

Sydney F. 32:11
I'm fucking sober and I hate being sober GET THE FUCK OUT MY FACE texts text the weed man where he at? Where he at? When he coming home? Why he ain't texting back. Can you find Oh my God, that's exhausting. Like looking back on it now. Like how exhausting but you know, I moved in with that man. And Hannah lived up the road and I don't I don't know how we discovered that each other smoked and probably smoked when he came to the house wanna

Hannah K. 32:32
know? Like how we even became friends

Sydney F. 32:35
while you were working with my mom. But I just remember I don't I can't really pinpoint it either. But I do know like, I would come into the credit union and like speak to you. Did I speak back? Because I remember. Remember you did and I think that you would like ask my mom like how I'm doing and stuff. I do remember going out with like me, you and Chelsea that was we had began I

Hannah K. 32:55
was like your birthday. It's a mystery. Yeah.

Sydney F. 32:59
I just know that we became friends and we never stopped being friends. Yeah, I don't know. Because but I'm sure we were like, Okay, finally somebody who thinks like me. Yeah, fine. And and I'm sure I'm sure we were bonded by marijuana also. So yeah, Hannah and we've told this story a lot, but it's a part of the journey. I mean, she would come down and get absolutely blown.

Hannah K. 33:23
I'd be lying on the couch like I can't fucking feel my arms. Right? Like I would look at Sydney and be like, I can't lift my arm. I was lifting my arm up in the fucking air. Because I'm a small girl. Okay, yeah. And like I hit that fucking Bong.

Sydney F. 33:40
That one clean bomb do twice did I anytime Hannah would text me and plan to come over I invited her at home I would be like run next door and get some weed Yanis coming and we need it and we had spent like $80 And if you know anything about pieces and glass, it was a roar Bong. That's an expensive shit. And it's good glass and it was one of those that had like the ice catcher in it and you know if you if you don't already know I'm sure you guys do but if you put ice in these pieces and you draw it it kind of makes it more milky and like draws more smoke. We were blown.

Hannah K. 34:20
Absolutely. I was

Sydney F. 34:22
always so nervous because my whole I was living in a trailer at the time my whole trailer smelt like straight weed and it was one of those trailers that you can like picture in your mind like you'd walk in everything was a hammer down at like a floral like 70s couch and then like a recliner that didn't match it but fuck it, it was comfortable and it was free. And then I had like this big tapestry on the wall that my cast used to hang off of and it was like a big celestial sun and moon

Hannah K. 34:44
I was about to mention the tapestry Yeah. And

Sydney F. 34:46
like instead of curtains that's what I had. I mean it was like your your typical stoner house like yeah, you know, and like we had nothing in the cabinets like nothing ever for munchies, but we had been cosmic. Well, we did have cosmic brown All these we kept those because that's what people came there for.

Hannah K. 35:04
I remember you would always be like you want a cosmic brownie I'm like, Yeah, hell yeah you know yeah I don't have

Sydney F. 35:12
anything else because I spent my money on this bag but yeah,

Hannah K. 35:16
but then you and your eggs broken and you move back to your home yep so back to your mom started to struggle and then you got well I help you get the job

Sydney F. 35:27
you did thank God I was working at Burger King because after me

Hannah K. 35:31
and I was like you could not be working at Burger King no more after we broke

Sydney F. 35:35
up mom and when I moved home I'm almost like you're gonna not be a piece of shit you're living here you're not gonna be pasted shit like those days are over and so I just kind of took what I could get and but at the time at that age like that money was okay, right more money than I was bringing in before so Hannah got me a job at this eye doctor. Oh, and we would meet up after work

Hannah K. 36:00
we had like monthly meetings. So I worked at the same place but in a different location. I would go up to where Sydney worked we would have monthly meetings where we're we're both locations would go come together and talk about bullshit and stupid shit and whatever else well when you didn't have your car at the time did you wreck at one point or did probably you didn't have a car

Sydney F. 36:26
with vehicles is not good,

Hannah K. 36:28
but I drove you home roll this fucking line.

Sydney F. 36:31
Yeah, like in my fucking purse that I'm like took to work like I had like the roll up and the weed. We had lockers at this particular establishment establishment. And I always had weed Yeah, that's so fucking bad. I probably shouldn't admit that but I mean I did and I mean at the time this was when like I was only able to like afford a G or two or maybe like an eighth or something. And I was like Hannah, you went back to you know our hometown you give me a ride and I would like flash the little bag she'd be like hell yeah so I remember we got off work at like maybe five or something and we didn't get I didn't get dropped off to like eight because Hannah and I were literally

Hannah K. 37:12
just riding around smokin we were up

Sydney F. 37:15
this road. I'm not gonna I don't like to mention where we live but we were up this road that is back road back road and away from police. We were next to the woods and I would roll it up Hannah was burning that gas up and down up and down the road. Were blasting music and we were just absolutely suited just plumb fucking just fucked up and I don't know that we've ever told the story before

Hannah K. 37:43
we haven't we have told nobody Well here it is never told nobody but here is the story that

Sydney F. 37:50
we came across we were coming up the road and it's kind of blurry to me now but I vividly remember what I saw

Hannah K. 37:58
we weren't that zoomed in like we fucking remember we started delusion

Sydney F. 38:03
like we wasn't smoking crack because we both saw it. Yeah. And like it is like a back road but if there's also like a main road and then you'd have to like go over to the back roads. So we're coming down the main road probably taken our next loop around to the back. And there's this truck on the side of the road literally parked on the side of the road on the main part of this

Hannah K. 38:22
area. Yeah, it's kind of like if you got pulled over by a police officer like you would park there right would stop there.

Sydney F. 38:30
This is cars go up and down this road all the time. Maybe not police, but definitely cars a lot of people rev up that way. We kind of get beside them and look over and I'm not fucking playing this bitch was riding dick in the front seat of this truck. She was riding his dick Literally. Literally like in broad daylight.

Hannah K. 38:50
Yes, it was brought Yes. It was like about like this time. Yeah, right now. Yeah, absolutely. Getting railed in the front seat. The driver's seat, like

Sydney F. 38:59
I we visibly saw her going up and down. Yeah. And she was like holding the back of the like, whatever the the headrest. Yeah, and like going up and down. I

Hannah K. 39:08
just remember like pointing out oh my god, she was fucking they were fucking she was getting railed. She was I mean good for her for her. Yeah.

Sydney F. 39:21
I mean, we wasn't hatin

Hannah K. 39:23
we were just like an like it was so unexpected out of nowhere y'all just

Sydney F. 39:27
picked a really weird spot like a part of me feels like that they were just that horned up there just simply could not take it anymore add to and like just park the truck it I don't know if they were trying to do something like spontaneous and like add something to their did that like add something to their bucket list?

Hannah K. 39:44
I don't know. I think we put that in our high do

Sydney F. 39:46
we did and you know what? I had that on my notes for the longest time you delete it. I have gotten new phones and something just I've just

Hannah K. 39:53
lost a note section anymore. Damn. And that was the

Sydney F. 39:57
day I had the date and the time I do know that it was a mess. A it was like 6:45pm or something. And it's 648. Yeah, right now literally right around this time of day, because we had gotten off work at five and just getting booked. We wrote because I'm pretty sure it was your idea she was she was like, what if we had a book?

Hannah K. 40:15
Or should we should write a book called ideas called high def. And it started

Sydney F. 40:19
with because y'all know like, when you smoke, you'll get these really good ideas like genius shit, actually.

Hannah K. 40:26
And maybe it's just like, philosophical question. Yeah.

Sydney F. 40:29
And then you lose it. Yeah. When you get sober. You're like, what were we talking about? It was so good. And you it's gone forever. And so we were absolutely before this podcast was ever an idea in our brains. We were going to write a book first.

Hannah K. 40:42
Heidi has patent pending.

Sydney F. 40:44
So don't don't even think of it because it's still in the works. Because I've recently started to smoke a little again. I swear, I never would, but I'm taking it very easy. You were like

Hannah K. 40:54
she smoked again?

Sydney F. 40:58
Yeah, textainer the first few days that I did it. I was like, guess who's smoking very, very little. Like I'm saying I'm like tapping the piece like yeah, very little because in to be honest with you, I'm gonna keep it a stack. It is not as much fun as it used to be. It's just not. I told Jordan the first day that I smoked again. I don't miss this lazy feeling. But wishing

Hannah K. 41:19
a high together like at least once on the pod. Absolutely. It's legal. We can do whatever the fuck oh my god, this is random. This is out of nowhere. But I was listening, of course to our podcast, because shameless self promo, one of the ads was actually a DUI ad. If you drive high, get a DUI, I'm not even talking. I was like, actually making DUI about getting high. Now there's so many people on the road. You only hear about it with alcohol most of the time. That's true. And I was like what,

Sydney F. 41:54
like, you know, like, even when we were driving to Florida, like going through the cities, we would literally pull up beside people in traffic. And there would be

Hannah K. 42:01
let me let me look at this road chat real quick. We roll this new one

Sydney F. 42:06
hitting their bowl, like I mean, it was just open and we went to one of Jordans comedy show the other night and we were standing in the middle of the town and this dude was just passing the ball and the blunt. I mean, it's just so lacks. Now we were smoking when it wasn't easy. Hell no. We were shoving shit in our ass cracks and under our

Hannah K. 42:24
team, you were but not to do what you had to do not I had

Sydney F. 42:30
a I had a I would put it under my boobs and you know, whatever. You just wasn't easy back then.

Hannah K. 42:37
Wasn't and I was like, I was actually terrified of like going to jail. But yeah, um, but I was too. I'm still gonna I'm still gonna get high. But

Sydney F. 42:45
I was chanting in every possible opportunity that I could like I was picking it up, you know, about 30 minutes away to pick it up that Ozy Chevon. And under my right tit, Robin home with it. I will open it on the way. Right, like I was so reckless. And so, but I was telling Jordan, the first time that I smoked here recently, again, I was so lazy the rest of the day, like just didn't want to do anything, didn't want to cook dinner, didn't want to clean the house didn't want to eat Kobe for fucking Kobe barcode. And I told him I said, you know, that lazy feeling was cool when I was 19 and 20. But I can't stand it now.

Hannah K. 43:22
And it affects people differently. It does. Yeah, like for me and you were dead. I'm dead. I'm going to bed right literally I would come home from your house and I would take like a three hour nap and be like up was fucking amazing. Right? And it's still good for sleeping. It

Sydney F. 43:40
is and I think it's it can do great things for anybody.

Hannah K. 43:44
But I would I would do CBD though. Instead of smoking all the time

Sydney F. 43:49
I give my dog CBD once a day and I have been taking CBD gummies I just it's just not the same for me. It was so euphoric and so freeing and calming and relaxing back then. But it's just not the hype is not there for me. Anyway,

Hannah K. 44:05
I'm gonna get some weed for our one year birthday. And we're just gonna let's do it. I'm gonna smoke on the live I can probably

Sydney F. 44:11
just bring it from home. One of our listeners the other day came by to pick up some jewelry from me that I had made. And she was like, when I pull up to your mailbox, don't look at me, I don't and she was like, I look like shit. And I was like, You don't got to worry about it because we're in here smoking and haven't moved in like four hours. Here, you know, you don't have anything to worry about. I'm not I'm not getting up to look out no windows.

Hannah K. 44:32
If I'm smoking I'm not moving right off the couch.

Sydney F. 44:35
And another thing too, like I want to lose weight, obviously so that I want to do for a long time. It ain't gonna happen if I'm not like smoking weed. I've eaten up my whole kitchen. But again, it has great medicinal of course properties. I'm all for people that want to vote.

Hannah K. 44:52
Okay, so not to get into politics, but I will say Joe Biden has done a fantastic job these past for five months, especially with a lot of the things and bills he's passed recently with, you know, the PAC dag getting funding for veterans and student debt cancellation he's done a full 180 In my personal opinion like I'm not saying he's you know, the best president of all time, but he's done some great things recently and y'all can say what you want I don't give a fuck my opinions aren't gonna change like I'm an intelligent person like

Sydney F. 45:30
we're gonna say what we want here on this filthy trashy podcast dark Brandon

Hannah K. 45:35
rising you know what was really said the Conservatives over there just fucking passing marijuana to be federally legal. Oh, yeah, that would really fucking drug heads that would put the last nail in the coffin.

Sydney F. 45:49
It's so funny seeing their reactions to shit. That's like changing and then they're mad about it

Hannah K. 45:54
so ridiculous. I'm like, like, but you weren't saying that. When you got your $180,000 PPP loan check. You didn't have to pay that shit back.

Sydney F. 46:04
Right hypocrites.

Hannah K. 46:05
Exactly. Anyway, I just wanted to bring that up really quick. Because that would really make Joe Biden the most popular, absolutely. Even more popular than he is right at this moment. Because his his like approval rating has went up to like 47 or 48% when it was at like 30 Some percent at the beginning of the year.

Sydney F. 46:26
Still a numbers. Yeah, just like us. Exactly.

Hannah K. 46:29
Exactly. Everybody calls him Uncle Joe. I call him Grandpa Joe, because he's a grandpa. He is Grandpa Joe.

Sydney F. 46:36
He's getting up there.

Hannah K. 46:37
He's like the same age as my grandpa. Yeah, so I think this was a really fun episode. It

Sydney F. 46:43
was this was enjoyable. I always enjoy telling old stories because I

Hannah K. 46:48
know the nostalgia. We've got good ones. Yeah, and

Sydney F. 46:50
it's you know, those were fun times in our lives. It's just we're just not that cool anymore. Some days I wish I was you sometimes I feel like I took advantage. I don't want to be that lazy person that I was again, you just want to be that free spirit. Person again, like I like not giving a for anxiety set in before depression set in. But you know, I truly had it so easy. If my only concern now was my next time I was gonna get my next bag of weed right? We'd be dandy but you know life changes you get older things get harder and and I think right? I do miss those old times of

Hannah K. 47:32
priorities change they do and it fucking sucks. Yeah, but that doesn't mean you can't you know smoke every night.

Sydney F. 47:38
I can see me now like if I ever get like this panic disorder under control and like if I ever get financially stable to the point where I'm good and I'm old and retired. I've always said that I want to have like this big wraparound porch with just a bunch of chairs for all my friends to sit whichever friends that I have at that time. I hope all of them in just get Hi. Just just right beside you. All the way down to my porch. I think that's my biggest dream. I've made it there. I've

Hannah K. 48:03
made it. Also moms who smoke. Yep, do it. Do it. It's no different than having that glass of wine. No, I mean, obviously after your kids go to bed and y'all know

Sydney F. 48:13
y'all know that we're here for them. Of course. Your pillow looks like a Labradorite crystal right now. Sorry, that was really random but it does cool. It's it's really fucking cool. I want to talk about one day like crystals and metaphysical.

Hannah K. 48:27
Do spirituality and yes, you guys want me to talk about astrology town? Yeah, cuz that's a part of it.

Sydney F. 48:34
I think that that episode did really well one of our best Yeah, it's because all the people that are calling us filthy and trashy are like she's not a Christian. She's condemned her to hell. Yeah, she she does witchcraft.

Hannah K. 48:48
I swear to God like the Satanic Panic is coming back like mark my fucking words. I'm not kidding. They're worried about you're worried about us?

Sydney F. 48:57
No, you are not displaying godliness.

Hannah K. 49:01
No, you're sorry. Yeah. Anyways,

Sydney F. 49:03
we'll save that for them yeah,

Hannah K. 49:04
that's that's another discussion for another day. So go ahead and like our facebook page and go join our group page. We haven't been very active on there. I haven't even been on Facebook like recently Yeah, but I need to try to be better

Sydney F. 49:20
me to Facebook slowly like is weeding itself out? Yeah,

Hannah K. 49:23
but I need to try to be better about posting regularly. And now we are you going to be doing bi weekly episodes just because it is easier, easier for us. And plus, that gives me like an off week so I can work on my shit too. Yes, we are gonna have merch come out. It's

Sydney F. 49:44
coming. Just wait on it. Yeah,

Hannah K. 49:45
so we're gonna have merch things are in the works. We're working on it. I'll post pictures of them. If you're interested in pre ordering it. Yeah, we can go ahead and take it. Yeah, we can take pre orders. 100% of the profits are going to The Women's Resource Center

Sydney F. 50:02
yeah please don't think that like this money is like going on our pockets and like buying our Mexican and margaritas it's not it's literally all the money from the pro row shirts literally went to the inner New River yeah I think I posted that postcard on or something about yeah it we make no money

Hannah K. 50:18
off we make some money like not all this but like off ads and yeah which is doing really well but yeah merch it's going for it's for domestic violence awareness and that's during the month of October so 100% of the profits are going to the Women's Resource Center and Radford so I'm really excited because I actually did the design myself. Yes, it's really I'm really proud of it because we came up with it all on my own.

Sydney F. 50:45
It's very cute. I think the seasonal aspect of it will sell definitely have in itself. I mean it's really cute.

Hannah K. 50:52
The follow us on Twitter and Instagram. Yep, I haven't posted on Instagram in a while but we're still there. Yeah, we're still there. So follow us and tick tock maybe we should make a tick tock one day Yeah, we should we should make it or something. Yeah, but we're on all the socials. We've literally have everything so go follow us. Please. Pretty pretty please, if unless you want to just like lurk and hate. Watch,

Sydney F. 51:19
come watch our filth. Our trashy filth.

Hannah K. 51:21
We appreciate y'all. Yeah. So anyway, thank you guys so much for listening and we will talk to you on the next one.

Sydney F. 51:28
Bye peace.